This flared up again recently. Besides “wanting insight” often I simply am searching for fluency. I want something that I can fluently engage with, and if there’s an impediment to fluency, I bounce off. Wanting an experience of fluency is a very different goal from wanting to understand the thing. Rn I don’t have too many domains where I have technical fluency. I’m betting if I had more of that, it would extend my patience/ability to slog through texts that are hard for me.
This flared up again recently. Besides “wanting insight” often I simply am searching for fluency. I want something that I can fluently engage with, and if there’s an impediment to fluency, I bounce off. Wanting an experience of fluency is a very different goal from wanting to understand the thing. Rn I don’t have too many domains where I have technical fluency. I’m betting if I had more of that, it would extend my patience/ability to slog through texts that are hard for me.