I am probably bad at valuing my well-being correctly. That said I don’t think the initial comment made me feel bad (but maybe I am bad at noticing if it would). Rather now with this entire comment stream, I realize that I have again failed to communicate.
Yes, I think this was irrational to not clean up the glass. That is the point I want to make. I don’t think it is virtuous to have failed in this way at all. What I want to say is: “Look I am running into failure modes because I want to work so much.”
Not running into these failure modes is important, but these failure modes where you are working too much are much easier to handle than the failure mode of “I can’t get myself to put in at least 50 hours of work per week consistently.”
While I do think that it is true, I am probably very bad in general at optimizing for myself to be happy. But the thing is while I was working so hard during AISC I was most of the time very happy. The same when I made these games. Most of the time I did these things because I deeply wanted to.
There where moments during AISC where I felt like I was close to burning out, but this was the minority. Mostly I was much happier than baseline. I think usually I don’t manage to work as hard and as long as I’d like, and that is a major source of unhappiness for me.
So it seems that the problem that Alex seems to see, in me working very hard (that I am failing to take my happiness into account) is actually solved by me working very hard, which is quite funny.
Yes, I think this was irrational to not clean up the glass. That is the point I want to make. I don’t think it is virtual to have failed in this way at all. What I want to say is: “Look I am running into failure modes because I want to work so much.”
Ah! I completely missed that, that changes my interpretation significantly. Thank you for the clarification, now I’m less worried for you since it no longer sounds like you have a blindspot around it.
Not running into these failure modes is important, but these failure modes where you are working too much are much easier to handle than the failure mode of “I can’t get myself to put in at least 50 hours of work per week consistently.”
While I do think that it is true, I am probably very bad in general at optimizing for myself to be happy. But the thing is while I was working so hard during AISC I was most of the time very happy. The same when I made these games. Most of the time I did these things because I deeply wanted to.
It sounds right that these failure modes are easier to handle than the failure mode of not being able to do much work.
Though working too much can lead to the failure mode of “I can’t get myself put in work consistently”. I’d be cautious in that it’s possible to feel like you really enjoy your work… and then burn out anyway! I’ve heard several people report this happening to them. The way I model that is something like… there are some parts of the person that are obsessed with the work, and become really happy about being able to completely focus on the obsession. But meanwhile, that single-minded focus can lead to the person’s other needs not being met, and eventually those unmet needs add up and cause a collapse.
I don’t know how much you need to be worried about that, but it’s at least good to be aware of.
I am probably bad at valuing my well-being correctly. That said I don’t think the initial comment made me feel bad (but maybe I am bad at noticing if it would). Rather now with this entire comment stream, I realize that I have again failed to communicate.
Yes, I think this was irrational to not clean up the glass. That is the point I want to make. I don’t think it is virtuous to have failed in this way at all. What I want to say is: “Look I am running into failure modes because I want to work so much.”
Not running into these failure modes is important, but these failure modes where you are working too much are much easier to handle than the failure mode of “I can’t get myself to put in at least 50 hours of work per week consistently.”
While I do think that it is true, I am probably very bad in general at optimizing for myself to be happy. But the thing is while I was working so hard during AISC I was most of the time very happy. The same when I made these games. Most of the time I did these things because I deeply wanted to.
There where moments during AISC where I felt like I was close to burning out, but this was the minority. Mostly I was much happier than baseline. I think usually I don’t manage to work as hard and as long as I’d like, and that is a major source of unhappiness for me.
So it seems that the problem that Alex seems to see, in me working very hard (that I am failing to take my happiness into account) is actually solved by me working very hard, which is quite funny.
Ah! I completely missed that, that changes my interpretation significantly. Thank you for the clarification, now I’m less worried for you since it no longer sounds like you have a blindspot around it.
It sounds right that these failure modes are easier to handle than the failure mode of not being able to do much work.
Though working too much can lead to the failure mode of “I can’t get myself put in work consistently”. I’d be cautious in that it’s possible to feel like you really enjoy your work… and then burn out anyway! I’ve heard several people report this happening to them. The way I model that is something like… there are some parts of the person that are obsessed with the work, and become really happy about being able to completely focus on the obsession. But meanwhile, that single-minded focus can lead to the person’s other needs not being met, and eventually those unmet needs add up and cause a collapse.
I don’t know how much you need to be worried about that, but it’s at least good to be aware of.