Exasperation. (Especially exasperation that someone else is not being agenty, about something that I could just as easily take over and get done myself.)
Ugh-field sensations.
Creative “stuckness”. Talking to a beta reader almost always clears up this problem for me inside of fifteen to twenty minutes even if the beta doesn’t actually have anything to say, and I still don’t instantly grab one and start yammering when I feel it.
Non-strategic “but I don’t know how to do X!” (This is sometimes useful strategically, though.)
I’m insufficiently “agenty” in the following situations:
-When my working memory gets too full, i.e. when I’m doing a clinical at the hospital and my mental “to-do” list gets too long, I stop caring whether I’ll get everything done, how I’ll get everything done, whether I know how to do everything I’m supposed to do, etc. I then become a little obedient puppy who follows people around waiting until they tell me to do things.
-Whenever my mental response to a situation is “are you serious?”, my actual response is likely to be less than enthusiastic.
-Feeling embarrassed because of someone else’s behaviour-similar to exasperation. I don’t know if this is a conditioned response to not getting along with fellow members of group projects, but whenever I’m watching someone else struggle because they’re unprepared, say/do something stupid, etc, my motivation to make an effort drops to zero.
By a 5 second estimate this might be able to interact usefully with some of those phone apps that ask you aabut stuff at random intervals. At random every few minutes, ask if you’re feeling any of those things, have you click “yes” or “no”, and if yes it prompts with standard response you should have.
I find the following emotions are often associated with me being insufficiently “agenty”:
Wistfulness. An example.
Exasperation. (Especially exasperation that someone else is not being agenty, about something that I could just as easily take over and get done myself.)
Ugh-field sensations.
Creative “stuckness”. Talking to a beta reader almost always clears up this problem for me inside of fifteen to twenty minutes even if the beta doesn’t actually have anything to say, and I still don’t instantly grab one and start yammering when I feel it.
Non-strategic “but I don’t know how to do X!” (This is sometimes useful strategically, though.)
I’m insufficiently “agenty” in the following situations:
-When my working memory gets too full, i.e. when I’m doing a clinical at the hospital and my mental “to-do” list gets too long, I stop caring whether I’ll get everything done, how I’ll get everything done, whether I know how to do everything I’m supposed to do, etc. I then become a little obedient puppy who follows people around waiting until they tell me to do things.
-Whenever my mental response to a situation is “are you serious?”, my actual response is likely to be less than enthusiastic.
-Feeling embarrassed because of someone else’s behaviour-similar to exasperation. I don’t know if this is a conditioned response to not getting along with fellow members of group projects, but whenever I’m watching someone else struggle because they’re unprepared, say/do something stupid, etc, my motivation to make an effort drops to zero.
By a 5 second estimate this might be able to interact usefully with some of those phone apps that ask you aabut stuff at random intervals. At random every few minutes, ask if you’re feeling any of those things, have you click “yes” or “no”, and if yes it prompts with standard response you should have.