Pick as small of an internal conflict as possible and try to IDC it.
Whoops. Yeah, starting small definitely sounded like an obviously good idea, in hindsight.
I might have gone ahead and used as my first try figuring out my… gender identity, yeah.
It frigging worked as far as I can tell, I’ve used this yesterday and ever since I’ve felt a lot better than I’ve been in days. This was unbelievably helpful to me, and I’m really grateful for you having written this post.
To clarify my experience, in case someone is considering trying this for something on this scale after reading my comment:
I had gone in to identify stuff I already knew to be related to my gender, and that was sending out signals too confused and too conflicted to make sense, but it was making me feel worse and worse.
I went in ready to accept anything I’d have found, just wanting to know what it was, and it turned out that what was making me feel bad was misinterpreting/ignoring the stuff I was able to figure out by using IDC.
This is fascinating and I’d love to hear more depth on whatever you’d be willing to share.
Regarding the suggestion to start with something small, I think in hindsight it was kind of a manipulation on my part to make the tool seem safer and to try to get more people to try it. In my limited experience, internal conflicts that seem small rarely turn out to be.
When I first tried IDC at CFAR, the initial “small starting point” of “Should I floss?” dredged up a whole complex about distrust of doctors in particular and authority in general. A typical experience with watching myself and others IDC is that regardless of the starting point, one ends up in a grand dramatic battle of angels and demons over one’s soul.
Alright, I don’t think I have any problem talking a bit about it in private with you, for the time being I’d rather avoid sharing more in public though.
If anyone else thinks information on this could be helpful they can contact me, put please only do so if you think it’s really relevant you know.
Whoops. Yeah, starting small definitely sounded like an obviously good idea, in hindsight.
I might have gone ahead and used as my first try figuring out my… gender identity, yeah.
It frigging worked as far as I can tell, I’ve used this yesterday and ever since I’ve felt a lot better than I’ve been in days. This was unbelievably helpful to me, and I’m really grateful for you having written this post.
To clarify my experience, in case someone is considering trying this for something on this scale after reading my comment:
I had gone in to identify stuff I already knew to be related to my gender, and that was sending out signals too confused and too conflicted to make sense, but it was making me feel worse and worse.
I went in ready to accept anything I’d have found, just wanting to know what it was, and it turned out that what was making me feel bad was misinterpreting/ignoring the stuff I was able to figure out by using IDC.
This is fascinating and I’d love to hear more depth on whatever you’d be willing to share.
Regarding the suggestion to start with something small, I think in hindsight it was kind of a manipulation on my part to make the tool seem safer and to try to get more people to try it. In my limited experience, internal conflicts that seem small rarely turn out to be.
When I first tried IDC at CFAR, the initial “small starting point” of “Should I floss?” dredged up a whole complex about distrust of doctors in particular and authority in general. A typical experience with watching myself and others IDC is that regardless of the starting point, one ends up in a grand dramatic battle of angels and demons over one’s soul.
Alright, I don’t think I have any problem talking a bit about it in private with you, for the time being I’d rather avoid sharing more in public though.
If anyone else thinks information on this could be helpful they can contact me, put please only do so if you think it’s really relevant you know.