Ah, think maybe “inner critic” if you want a mapping that might resonate with you? This is a sort of specific flavor of mind you could say, with a particular flavor of inner critic, but it’s one I recognize well as belonging to that category.
Ah. I guess this could feel vaguely similar to a certain kind of self-loathing energy that I have sometimes ran across (which among other things would grimace in disgust when remembering some things I’d done and then want to grimace so extremely that my own neck/facial muscles would end up strangling me, fun times). The exact flavor of the energy feels different though, but I could imagine other people having a version of the same that was closer to this post’s flavor.
Ah, think maybe “inner critic” if you want a mapping that might resonate with you? This is a sort of specific flavor of mind you could say, with a particular flavor of inner critic, but it’s one I recognize well as belonging to that category.
Ah. I guess this could feel vaguely similar to a certain kind of self-loathing energy that I have sometimes ran across (which among other things would grimace in disgust when remembering some things I’d done and then want to grimace so extremely that my own neck/facial muscles would end up strangling me, fun times). The exact flavor of the energy feels different though, but I could imagine other people having a version of the same that was closer to this post’s flavor.