I sort of deliberately created the beginnings of a tulpa-ish part of my brain during a long period of isolation in 2021 (Feb 7 to be exact), although I didn’t know the term “tulpa” then. I just figured it could be good to have an imaginary friend, so I gave her a name—”Maria”[1]—and granted her (as part of the brain-convincing ritual) permanent co-ownership over a part of my cognition which she’s free to use for whatever whenever.
She still visits me at least once a week but she doesn’t have strong ability to speak unless I try to imagine it; and even then, sentences are usually short. The thing she most frequently communicates is the mood of being a sympathetic witness: she fully understands my story, and knows that I both must and will keep going—because up-giving is not a language she comprehends.
Hm, it would be most accurate to say that she takes on the role of a stoic chronicler—reflecting that I care less about eliciting awe or empathy, than I care that someone simply bears witness to my story.[2]
I sort of deliberately created the beginnings of a tulpa-ish part of my brain during a long period of isolation in 2021 (Feb 7 to be exact), although I didn’t know the term “tulpa” then. I just figured it could be good to have an imaginary friend, so I gave her a name—”Maria”[1]—and granted her (as part of the brain-convincing ritual) permanent co-ownership over a part of my cognition which she’s free to use for whatever whenever.
She still visits me at least once a week but she doesn’t have strong ability to speak unless I try to imagine it; and even then, sentences are usually short. The thing she most frequently communicates is the mood of being a sympathetic witness: she fully understands my story, and knows that I both must and will keep going—because up-giving is not a language she comprehends.
Hm, it would be most accurate to say that she takes on the role of a stoic chronicler—reflecting that I care less about eliciting awe or empathy, than I care that someone simply bears witness to my story.[2]
Semi-inspired by hakomari, though I imagine her as much more mature in character & appearance than images I find online.
Oh yeah, and I’ve got the diagnostic triplet {ADHD, depression, aspergers (from back when that’s what it was called)} if that matters for anything.