Managed to end up submitting some applications to places I think I would like to work at. I think things that helped me do this (notwithstanding chance/luck) were (in descending order of perceived priority):
Preventing potentially “oppressive” silence by having an audiobook/chat in the background. Not necessarily white noise chat, which can feel just irritating (not usually) and I don’t tend to like music due to it influencing emotions too much. It also sometimes requires too much fiddling about with playlists etc. Examples:
At the time it was two friends discussing how they’re thinking about their lives and video making ideas.
“Positively” working myself out / physically tiring myself. Went out to have long walk with a friend. Though I think physical activity is indeed important, it didn’t feel as impactful as the oppressive-silence-breaking.
The idea of being able to tell a friend, who is not that much invested in what I’m doing, that I did this and this cool thing.
These seem to somewhat lower my sense of anxiety both for applications/rejections and sending a message to people I should send a message to (e.g. job or someone I haven’t replied to in a very long time).
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Managed to end up submitting some applications to places I think I would like to work at. I think things that helped me do this (notwithstanding chance/luck) were (in descending order of perceived priority):
Preventing potentially “oppressive” silence by having an audiobook/chat in the background. Not necessarily white noise chat, which can feel just irritating (not usually) and I don’t tend to like music due to it influencing emotions too much. It also sometimes requires too much fiddling about with playlists etc. Examples:
At the time it was two friends discussing how they’re thinking about their lives and video making ideas.
Next time I did this by listening to Connor chatting about life and AI safety.
“Positively” working myself out / physically tiring myself. Went out to have long walk with a friend. Though I think physical activity is indeed important, it didn’t feel as impactful as the oppressive-silence-breaking.
The idea of being able to tell a friend, who is not that much invested in what I’m doing, that I did this and this cool thing.
These seem to somewhat lower my sense of anxiety both for applications/rejections and sending a message to people I should send a message to (e.g. job or someone I haven’t replied to in a very long time).