I don’t know if this helps, but I felt the same way, and took the Mensa entrance test to find out my IQ. Turns out that they don’t actually give you the results, just tell you if you’ve entered … and at the moment, that’s satisfied my desire to know without feeling unhappy it’s not high enough.
(nods) So, would you rather know what it is now, so you can either be content at having achieved your goal or know how much you have to increase it by to achieve your goal? Or would you rather remain ignorant?
What is true is already so. Owning up to it doesn’t make it worse.
I don’t know if this helps, but I felt the same way, and took the Mensa entrance test to find out my IQ. Turns out that they don’t actually give you the results, just tell you if you’ve entered … and at the moment, that’s satisfied my desire to know without feeling unhappy it’s not high enough.
What do you want your IQ to be?
(nods) So, would you rather know what it is now, so you can either be content at having achieved your goal or know how much you have to increase it by to achieve your goal? Or would you rather remain ignorant?