I get this IRL with people’s faces. I want to keep looking at someone to see whether or not they *approve*.
There’s a flip side to this, where I notice that if I play a video game, or watch a tv show, I have the sense that I am going to be punished for *getting up and leaving the game*. That exiting the approval system of the game will draw the game’s ire.
When I notice lotus-taste, I also look for an expected punishment. I also find that that is helpful, because the expected punishment is somehow easier to source as coming from within me.
In fact, I can feel this right now—it seems like by typing more words I’m pressing a button on a video game console, and I know that when I go away from this post I’ll feel fear.
I get this IRL with people’s faces. I want to keep looking at someone to see whether or not they *approve*.
There’s a flip side to this, where I notice that if I play a video game, or watch a tv show, I have the sense that I am going to be punished for *getting up and leaving the game*. That exiting the approval system of the game will draw the game’s ire.
When I notice lotus-taste, I also look for an expected punishment. I also find that that is helpful, because the expected punishment is somehow easier to source as coming from within me.
In fact, I can feel this right now—it seems like by typing more words I’m pressing a button on a video game console, and I know that when I go away from this post I’ll feel fear.