Trying to avoid personal vices by not acting or thinking like the people who had the vices I wanted to avoid. For example, wanting to be a great scientist, and suppressing this desire without realizing that it wasn’t actually possible for me to aspire for one thing, dislike m motivation for it (fame and accomplishment), and try to come up with a better one- the actions conflict with each other, yet I really did think that the only reason I wasn’t pursuing that path already was due to a disruptive home life. This is probably true, but to this day I can’t tell if I was flinching away from the fact, or if I was that distracted that I wasn’t thinking deeply enough.
Trying to extrapolate cognitive science and theory of mind without assistance (or at least familiarizing myself with Egan’s Law) by observing and altering my thought process, and subsequently having a 3-month long dissociative episode involving many suicide hotlines, a significantly lowered GPA, and a “ruined before it started” romance.
Trying to avoid personal vices by not acting or thinking like the people who had the vices I wanted to avoid. For example, wanting to be a great scientist, and suppressing this desire without realizing that it wasn’t actually possible for me to aspire for one thing, dislike m motivation for it (fame and accomplishment), and try to come up with a better one- the actions conflict with each other, yet I really did think that the only reason I wasn’t pursuing that path already was due to a disruptive home life. This is probably true, but to this day I can’t tell if I was flinching away from the fact, or if I was that distracted that I wasn’t thinking deeply enough.
Trying to extrapolate cognitive science and theory of mind without assistance (or at least familiarizing myself with Egan’s Law) by observing and altering my thought process, and subsequently having a 3-month long dissociative episode involving many suicide hotlines, a significantly lowered GPA, and a “ruined before it started” romance.