I think I’m judging that schoolwork that’s sufficiently similar to the kind of intellectual work that I want to do anyway (or that I can otherwise get selfish benefit out of) gets its cost discounted. (It doesn’t have to be exactly the same.) And that commuting on the train with a seat is 70% similar to library time. (I wouldn’t even consider a car commute.)
That schedule actually seems … pretty good? “Real Analysis II” with Prof. Schuster is the course I actually want to take, as a legitimate learning resource and challenge, but the other two math courses don’t seem worthless and insulting. “Queer Literatures and Media” does seem worthless and insulting, but might present an opportunity to troll the professor, or fodder for my topic-relevant blog and unfinished novella about a young woman hating going to SFSU.
As for judgement, I think I’m integrating a small judgement-density over a large support of time and Society. The immediate trigger for me even considering this might have been that people were arguing about school and Society on Twitter in way that brought up such rage and resentment in me. Somehow, I think I would be more at peace if I could criticize schooling from the position of ”… and I have a math degree” rather than ”… so I didn’t finish.” That peace definitely wouldn’t be worth four semesters, but it might be worth two.
I think I’m judging that schoolwork that’s sufficiently similar to the kind of intellectual work that I want to do anyway (or that I can otherwise get selfish benefit out of) gets its cost discounted. (It doesn’t have to be exactly the same.) And that commuting on the train with a seat is 70% similar to library time. (I wouldn’t even consider a car commute.)
For the fall semester, I’d be looking at “Real Analysis II”, “Probability Models”, “Applied and Computational Linear Algebra”, and (wait for it …) “Queer Literatures and Media”.
That schedule actually seems … pretty good? “Real Analysis II” with Prof. Schuster is the course I actually want to take, as a legitimate learning resource and challenge, but the other two math courses don’t seem worthless and insulting. “Queer Literatures and Media” does seem worthless and insulting, but might present an opportunity to troll the professor, or fodder for my topic-relevant blog and unfinished novella about a young woman hating going to SFSU.
As for judgement, I think I’m integrating a small judgement-density over a large support of time and Society. The immediate trigger for me even considering this might have been that people were arguing about school and Society on Twitter in way that brought up such rage and resentment in me. Somehow, I think I would be more at peace if I could criticize schooling from the position of ”… and I have a math degree” rather than ”… so I didn’t finish.” That peace definitely wouldn’t be worth four semesters, but it might be worth two.