you are basically engaging in something you are really bad at and don’t enjoy
From your description, it seems like you’re engaging in something you’re good at and don’t enjoy. (I mention this because I expect that realizing you’ve become skilled at this might cause you to enjoy it more. If you try to have the skill instead of trying to fake the skill, you might find that you’ve already done most of the work.)
From your description, it seems like you’re engaging in something you’re good at and don’t enjoy. (I mention this because I expect that realizing you’ve become skilled at this might cause you to enjoy it more. If you try to have the skill instead of trying to fake the skill, you might find that you’ve already done most of the work.)