she attempted to pressure me to take MDMA under her supervision. I ended up refusing, and she relented; however, she then bragged that because she had relented, I would trust her more and be more likely to take MDMA the next time I saw her.
this seems utterly evil, especially given MDMA is known as an attachment inducing drug.
edit: more generally, it seems tragic for people who are socially-vulnerable and creative to end up paired with adept manipulators.
a simple explanation is that because creativity is (potentially very) useful, vulnerable creative people will be targets for manipulation. but i think there are also dynamics in communities with higher [illegibility-tolerance? esoterism?] which enable this, which i don’t know how to write about. i hope someone tries to write about it.
in olivia’s case, it seems like the algorithm she’s running lately is roughly to try and make herself out as an authority to basically all of the late teens/early 20s transfem rationalists in a particular social circle. (we sometimes half-joking call outselves lgbtescreal, a name due to that beloved user tetraspace). i’ve heard it claimed by someone else in this community that olivia has bragged about achieving mod status in various discord servers we’ve been in, and derisively referred to us as “the 19 year olds” who she was nonetheless trying to gain influence over. i think olivia roughly just wants to be seen as powerful and influential, and (being transfem herself, and having a long history in the core rationality community) has an easy time influencing young rationalist transfems in particular.
this seems utterly evil, especially given MDMA is known as an attachment inducing drug.
edit: more generally, it seems tragic for people who are socially-vulnerable and creative to end up paired with adept manipulators.
a simple explanation is that because creativity is (potentially very) useful, vulnerable creative people will be targets for manipulation. but i think there are also dynamics in communities with higher [illegibility-tolerance? esoterism?] which enable this, which i don’t know how to write about. i hope someone tries to write about it.
in olivia’s case, it seems like the algorithm she’s running lately is roughly to try and make herself out as an authority to basically all of the late teens/early 20s transfem rationalists in a particular social circle. (we sometimes half-joking call outselves lgbtescreal, a name due to that beloved user tetraspace). i’ve heard it claimed by someone else in this community that olivia has bragged about achieving mod status in various discord servers we’ve been in, and derisively referred to us as “the 19 year olds” who she was nonetheless trying to gain influence over. i think olivia roughly just wants to be seen as powerful and influential, and (being transfem herself, and having a long history in the core rationality community) has an easy time influencing young rationalist transfems in particular.
good to hear it’s at least transparent enough for you to describe it directly like this. (edit: though the points in dawnlights post seem scarier)