I’ve also read that people with bipolar disorder are more likely to commit suicide as their depression lifts.
But antidepressant effects can be very complicated. I know someone who says one med made her really really want to sleep with her feet where her head normally went. I once reacted to an antidepressant by spending three days cycling through the thoughts, “I should cut off a finger” (I explained to myself why that was a bad idea) “I should cut off a toe” (ditto) “I should cut all the flesh from my ribs” (explain myself out of it again), then back to the start.
The akrasia-lifting explanation certainly seems plausible to me (although “mood” may not be the other relevant variable—it may be worldview and plans; I’ve never attempted suicide, but certainly when I’ve self-harmed or sabotaged my own life it’s often been on “autopilot”, carrying out something I’ve been thinking about a lot, not directly related to mood—mood and beliefs are related, but I’ve noticed a lag between one changing and the other changing to catch up to it; someone might no longer be severely depressed but still believe that killing themself is a good course of action). Still, I would also believe an explanation that certain meds cause suicidal impulses in some people, just as they can cause other weird impulses.
Hi, Alicorn, just wanted to say that the ideas from your fanfic and the related sequence have noticeably helped me in real life. I’m not fully implementing them or I wouldn’t be spending my Saturday screwing around online, but I definitely feel empowered and optimistic, which is an unfamiliar situation. Applying these patterns of thinking at any time has proven to improve my life and my effectiveness. That is pretty cool for someone addicted to instant gratification.
Luminosity seems very related to mindfulness; it requires intentional control of one’s attention in much the same way as meditation. I’m probably in better mental health than I usually am, since I can control my attention, but adding in your other strategies has allowed me to identify factors that help or inhibit my control.
So, uhh, thanks.